No Fear Year Week Three: The Unknown
If you are reading this, I am currently in a remote corner of Malaysia with no phone or internet access working on overcoming yet another of my fears. I’ve pre scheduled this post because I’m determined to keep this consistent. Sitting where I am now in my cozy bed in Sydney, I feel a huge sense of fear of the unknown that lies ahead of me. Both in an existential sense and also in an “I’m flying to the middle of nowhere Malaysia in 3 days to do something that terrifies me and I have no idea if I can actually do it” kind of a way.
Let me try to explain without giving too much away. When I very first started thinking about this project I had a very specific fear on my list that I wasn’t quite sure how to tackle. So I did what every millenial does and went to google. It turns out there was a very specific and very affordable way to do EXACTLY what I wanted to do but that would also mean signing up to go to Malaysia on slightly short notice. It was also going to be far more challenging than what my original intentions were. I wasn’t just signing up for a one off thing but for nearly two weeks of something that terrifies me.
Sitting here at home a few days out, I’m still not sure if I can accomplish the task ahead. I’m questioning my sanity in signing up for such a big thing that comes with many unknowns. I am hoping that as I sit here with grave concern, someday future me will look back and tell myself “you did it” and remember that the unknown doesn’t have to be quite so scary.
P.S. I know I’m being pretty vague here but it just means you have to come back next week to see what I’m up to.