No Fear Year: A New Challenge
While my blog has been neglected over the last few months, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how my year of goal setting changed my life in really incredible ways. With that, the subject of fear has also been on my mind. People who meet me tend to assume that I am a pretty fearless person because I travel alone or to places with big language barriers. I get those comments a lot, but the truth is that I am a huge scaredy cat. In fact, as I started to think about my fears, I wrote out a surpriginly long list and realized just how much I have allowed these things hold me back. I am so tired of hiding from all of the things that scare me and ready to take on a new challenge to get outside my comfort zone, gain confidence, and become the person that I want to be.
So I came up with an idea: A “no fear year”. I was going to pick one thing from my list to challenge each week and write about it here on my blog. I was really excited about it thinking of all the different things I could do to overcome my fears and then… the fear set in. The fear of vunerability, which I guess is this week’s fear. The idea of trusting the internet with 52 of my greatest fears is a terrifying thought. What if people think this is a stupid idea? What if it turns out my fears are really lame? What if I do or say the wrong thing and offend someone? Honestly, I still don’t have the answers.
I had settled on forgetting about the project when I stopped in Hawaii on my way back to Australia and was presented with the opportunity to go cliff jumping. I was TERRIFIED. I’m honestly not even sure why. I’ve jumped from high dives and been swimming in the ocean but somehow this felt different. I stood on the cliff in panic for way too long watching children do backflips into the water before clumsily hurling myself over the edge. In the moments that followed as I was plunging down towards the ocean I felt a huge sense of accomplishment and pride. I realized that fear is only the anticipation and that fear when challenged transforms into confidence and I decided I wanted more of that.
So this is me, throwing myself over the edge and in hopes of finding that rush of adrenaline and a new sense of self before I hit the water. I’ve got a lengthy list of fears to go on and some really exciting “opportunities” (things I’m dreading) on the way so feel free to join me on my adventure.